Rarely a day goes by when someone doesn’t ask “How are you doing?”. To be perfectly honest, I feel great! The symptoms that initially sent me to the emergency room, shortness of breath and mild chest pressure, were due to iron deficiency anemia and I’ve been taking megadoses of iron for the last three months to correct that situation. I’ve had no pain in my stomach, just a constant fullness and an often…..hmmm, “tricky” digestive system. I eat small meals and lots of veggies. My “big meal” of the day is usually lunch and I take a variety of vitamins, supplements and probiotics. I need to drink more water, particularly when I start chemo, so I’m trying to wean myself off of coffee, tea and wine. 😦 When the weather is nice, I go for walks with the dogs and do a little gardening. The daffodils are about to bloom, the trees and roses are budding and I really do need to divide those daylilies this year!
So……life goes on, not as I would have it, but I’m feeling well and, for the most part, I’ve been able to keep a positive attitude. There have been a few “down days”: learning in January that the Rituxan treatments had not had a significant impact on my tumor and my latest visit with my onocologist to schedule my chemotherapy. There are things that I’d really like to do: breed a litter or two, travel to the World Show in Stockholm this summer and get a job to help make ends meet during this struggling housing market. All of that has to be put on hold until I’ve put chemo and surgery and radiation behind me. I focus on all of the good things in my life right now. Herbie won the SCBC Specialty in January (my first specialty winner!), Amanda has been accepted at PLU, Concordia, and St. Olaf and she’s received some nice scholarships and Marie and Nick are doing great in Michigan and thinking about buying their first home. I have friends all over the world who are thinking of me and praying for me and while I won’t spend much time in the show ring myself this year, good friends throughout the U.S. will keep Talbot Hill beagles in the ring.
My faith is strong and I know that everything happens for a reason, according to His plan. I’ll be fine and someday I’ll be breeding and showing and traveling again. For now, though, I’m on a journey of a different sort…..